If you’d of asked me 3 years ago where I’d be now, I’d never of said where I’ve ended up.

So this ones gonna be a soppy one, omg no way, really Mill?! But I’ve been sitting here for the last hour trying to get to sleep but what a shock, it isn’t happening. So here I am sitting in the dark watching 8 Out of 10 Cats whilst spamming my boyfriend with texts about how I don’t deserve him and that he’s the best person to bless this earth (which he is). Anyway, looking back at the Mill from three years ago: I was in my final year at college, getting ready for my exams and had my heart set on not going to university. I was gonna work full time at my old pub and work myself up to management. I was too young to go out but still used my mates ID which said I was 24 (some how it worked) and I looked like a chubby butch woman. I very much had no control of my life and had no goals, dreams or desires.

Now, three years on, I’m 31 days away from submitting my final university assignment and on the way to getting me a degree?? I’m a stone lighter and 90% satisfied with my appearance. I’m 10 weeks away from my 21st Birthday/first holiday with my partner in crime. If you’d of told 17 year old Mill that in three years time she’d be getting a degree and planning to move out with an absolute dream of a geeza I’d of probably laughed in your face and told you where to stick it.

Back then I used to have such a low self-esteem and fully believed I was gonna live a life like Bridget Jones, don’t get me wrong - there’s still time for it to all go in that direction - but I never thought I’d be as happy as I am now. In the last three years I’ve changed so much, physically and mentally and I just can’t wait to see what the next three years hold.

I am so lucky to have such an amazing family, boyfriend and friends around me, keeping my head above the water - I’ve just got 1 last push left to get my university work submitted to the best possible standard AND get the job I deserve after I qualify. I mean, it’s possible - I think???

Here you go Mill, look back at this on April 17th 2021 and hopefully you’ll be in an EVEN BETTER place than you are now! You got this hunti x

Until next time, Barry x